(1) I am not going to graduate school. I recently starting looking up different grad schools and looking at their requirements. I don't qualify to go to any grad schools that I would like to go to. I didn't get a high enough GPA in college. This means that I can't even apply. The schools won't even accept or look at my application because I don't meet their minimum requirements. "But Courtney, why don't you just send in your application and see what happens?" Sure I'll do that. Do you want to give me the $100 for the application fee? So unless my GPA magically goes up in the next few years it looks like grad school is out of the question.
(2) I have had many people tell me to go on a mission. They told me that I can take time off and figure out my life. Have these people even been on missions?! For what I heard you really don't have time to just sit and ponder and focus on yourself. I have considered it for a while now but decided not to put my papers in. I would be doing it for purely selfish reasons (running away from my current life) and I have WAY to much respect for missionaries and the church to go on a mission for selfish reasons.
(3) Go get another job. Believe me, I've been trying. For the past year (pretty much since I started working here) I've been looking. The problem is that I don't have enough experience yet and I am actually getting paid pretty well for just a shovel bum doing CRM work. I've applied to about 10 different places (not all archaeology jobs) in the past two weeks and I haven't gotten offers from any of them. What's a girl to do?
(4) Some have been telling me to just take a leap of faith. A leap? Where? So what do you want me to do? Quit my job and go live on the street? Move to another city and start over? Do you people live in a movie?! That stuff doesn't work. I have no where to go and I have no money. This can cause a problem. I trust that God will not just let me starve but Im not stupid (contrary to what my GPA may say). I have to keep my job (no matter how unhappy I am) until I find something else. That's it, bottom line. I am not afraid to fail; however, there is nothing right now that I can take a chance with. I'll take chances, I just don't have any right now.
In the end I just don't know what to do. Thanks for your advice. I welcome it, just please don't be offended if I don't take it.