Friday, August 22, 2008

Soul searching is painful

I made it... barely.... But I made it! I hiked the whole 17 miles of the Narrows!

The hike started out great. We were walking along just enjoying the view. The all of a sudden: CRACK! I rolled my ankle and fell in the water. Luckily the only one who saw me was my best buddy Adam. 

I thought I would be fine but then it happened again, and again, and again. The 10th time I rolled my ankle was the breaking point. I was a lot of pain, my knees were bruising from falling on the rocks, my ankles started swelling, I was being told to "walk it off" by someone who had no idea what was really wrong, and I was already far behind the leaders. I was so embarrassed. I'm a good hiker. I do this for a living! What's wrong with me? 

Half way though the hike (mile 8) I took a break and thought about my ankles. LIGHT BULB! Right before my college graduation (April 2007) I had a longboarding accident. I fell hard and ended up getting torn apart by the asphalt. My wounds didn't heal as fast as I thought they should so I decided to go to the Dr to see if there was something wrong. It turns out my cuts were infected and my Dr told me that I most likely tore a tendon in my ankle. NICE!

This is why my ankle kept rolling. OHH! I'm not gonna lie, the hike is hard. It's like walking on wet bowling balls for 16 miles. But I knew that I could do this. Hey, I was even concerned that I would have to pull the other people along. But you can't ignore the fact that there is something wrong when I can't even walk on a flat surface without rolling my ankle.

I sound like such a baby : (

But in the end the hike was worth it. The slot canyons were amazing, I loved seeing my friends Adam and Emily again, I made new friends, and I'm just that much cooler now 'cause I hiked the Narrows! I would do it again....IF, and only if, I had really great ankle support and a walking stick. 

Here are some pictures of the hike and my friends:

Its been 6 days since the hike and my ankles are still bruised and swollen.  : /  Sick huh?

But wait, there's more. Between the falling and bruising up my body, I really had very little time to soul search. So my friends did it for me. A few voted for me to tell the guy (if you don't know what Im talking about then go here or here) but the ones that really matter (my guy friends) told me not to. In the end I'm not going to tell him how I feel. I have been told by way to many of my guy friends that I girl should NEVER pursue a guy. Well there you have it. I know all you women want me to tell him (and I love you all for the support) but I think this time I'm going to listen to a man. I think he would know what a fellow man would want.... cause let's face it, he is one. 

**Don't worry, I'm planning on going to the Dr in a few days if the swelling and bruising doesn't die down.


Lisa said...

Please go to the doctor! You feet look so sore!!!
Love the pictures! It's amazing you made it with your ankle so bad. What a Gal!
Aunt Lisa

~ Jamie ~ said...

Heavens! My ankles ache when I see yours! But the hike sounds amazing. I would actually like to try it someday. Uncle Alan has done it a few times. You are definately cooler now that you have done it! I want to be cool like you.

Cheryl said...

I hope you see a doctor, too. Your poor feet! At least the pictures/views/experience was worth it! Right? Right.

Good luck with all the changes comin' your way. And I'm glad you made a decision about the guy thing, even if it's not the decision I liked. Heh heh. :)

Love you.

Jeff said...

That hikes looks fun and hard. So you really need to tell your guy friend that you like him because if you don't you will always regret it. Usually when guys hang out with you a lot they like you. Guys don't generally hang around girls they don't like. So take a leap of faith and tell him. You have nothing to lose by doing so. If the guy doesn't want to be your friend afterwards, then he was never really a friend at all. So good luck with your descision.

Booya Grandma said...

Who are these crazy guys.